wow i have not been on here in forever. on monday, kaedyn will be a month old :( so not fair! hes still a tiny little thing so that makes me happy(: hopefully he stays small forever… i can only wish. i start cosmetology on September 18th at Don Roberts Spa School. so excited. and im hoping Jason gets a hint soon and puts a ring on my finger… but i didnt say anything at alll :)

feeling too sore and too bleh to bounce still…. so sick of being pregnant. just thrilled that Friday will be here soon enough. some young mommas need to talk to me and keep me company!

38 weeks and i am getting induced friday! since my last dr app, i have had pain and nonstop itching. idk why but its getting annoying to where i dont want to sit on my yoga ball to bounce anymore. i freaking hate it :(

so for mothers day i actually got 2 cards. but didnt get one from my boyfriend, he said i wasnt a “mommy yet” lol but whatever. I got one from my step dads mom, and from my close friends who live down the street. 24 days to go until my due date. Kaedyn you are welcome to come anyday. im sick of being pregnant.

Kaedyn is head down! finally the booger is head down just ready to drop any day now(: I went to the Belly Factory today to get a 3D/4D ultrasound. it was pretty amazing there. the people there were great, so nice and great to joke around with. we also had his heartbeat recorded and put into a stuffed dalmatian for his room. I wish Jason was there to see it, sadly being a Friday work is gonna be so much more busy for him during his overnight shift so he needed to sleep. He is gonna be so excited tho to see the pictures i hope(: i got him copies on a disk and the flick disk also! I love him so much<3 Kaedyn, since your room is finished and bag is packed, you are welcome to drop and come anytime you would like!

almost may! i cannot believe that its getting close. basically 5 1/2 weeks left, he is so rotten already. i hate how i get so nauseas and hungry at the same time. i got a tour at the labor&delivery floor in the hospital i am delivering at. saw a friends new baby, he was adorable. Jason and I are now working things out, his mother started a fight between us, it was a thing she said. im very happy to be with him, i need his support. it isnt the fact i dont want to be single. i have been single for a long time after the first breakup between him&i. and its just him i want to be with. i cant picture being with anyone else. he is the love of my life. but everything will be settled now so im just happy about that(:

threw my whole pregnancy i have not wanted veggies what so ever. but i know i have to eat them so i tried it with peanut butter. little did i know it was reduced fat. WHO THE FUCK MADE REDUCED FAT PEANUT BUTTER? they should be shot. it tastes like shit, no peanut taste at all. pissed me off and i honestly didnt wanna eat the rest of the day because i had gross “peanut butter” in my tummy.

because you have a baby, or are pregnant, DO NOT THINK THAT YOUR LIFE IS OVER! girls it is still possible to make your dreams come true(: it is possible to go to school, have a career and have your family. it is hard but for a fact it is worth it. but just be cause if you go to school does not mean you need to be irresponsible and party 24/7. you need to go to school and make your dream come true for your child! do what is right.

Name: Jordan
Age: 19
Birthday: June 24th
Height: 5’4

FIRSTS: 

Is this your first pregnancy?: yes (:
How did you find out you were pregnant?: home tests
What kind of pregnancy test did you take?: digital and a clearblue
How many?: 5
What were your first symptoms?: nausea
Who did you tell first?: my boyfriend
Who was with you when you found out?: Jason(boyfriend)
Was baby planned?: no he wasnt
When was baby conceived?: around Sept 15th
How far were you when you found out?: it was in October

My baby:

Due date: June 7th
Do you know the gender?: yes (:
If so, boy or girl?: boy!
Any names?: Kaedyn
Any ultrasounds?: ive had many due to placenta previa
Have you heard the heartbeat?: yes i have
Who do you think baby will look like?: not sure, hopefullly me
Will baby have any siblings?: helll no
Have you felt baby move?: yes quite alot

MISCELLANEOUS:

Do/Did you have morning sickness?: yeah i did
Do/Did you have any cravings?: hamburger helper
Do/Did you have any mood swings?: yeah alot
Are you a high risk pregnancy?: nope
Any complications?: placenta previa
Formula or breastfeeding?: formula
Have you bought anything for baby yet?: he has everything
When did you start to show?: um not too long ago, so rlly late
How long could you wear your regular clothes?: i still wear regular clothes, welll yogas just not jeans
Are you excited?: nervous!
Who will help with baby after their born?: my mom, hopefully Jason
What are some of your favorite things about being pregnant?: feeling the baby move
What are some of the worst things about being pregnant?: sickness, hot flashes
What are some things you miss doing since being pregnant? i can still do everything i did before
Are you ready for baby?: physically yes, emotionally and mentally no.
How many kids do you want?: 2
Do you talk to your baby?: yeah i do alot
Do you still feel attractive?: i never felt attractive
How far along are you now?: 33 weeks 1 day

sooo happy with how my shower turned out. Kaedyn got so many things(: he will never ever go around naked! he is soo spoiled and he isnt even here yet. today im 32 weeks 3 days. im so terrified that he is gonna be here soon. i just got home from work, i got off early because i cannot stand for a long time without feeling sick and im having too many hot flashes. i just need to relax because of too many things going on in the past week. its just so much to handle.